Day Forty-Eight.

I just realized I've been spelling "Forty" wrong! Oops. Going to have to fix that here in a minute!!

Well, what to say about this day? I have had another 'one of those' days. I just need to get out of this slump. I wish a rainbow would just break through my window in the morning and tell me to brighten the hell up... or something. That might be just a little dramatic!

I did however get to talk to my soldier this morning. Not nearly as long as I wanted to, but it was still nice to hear his voice and see his face on the computer.

He works at the FARP tonight. It's a little strange to me that they rotate them so much and so randomly. Actually, they may have a rhyme or reason to it, and I am just not paying attention.
It always seems that he is in a better mood the day after he works at the FARP. I hope that he gets some good rest in and good food in his belly after work today. He really needs it.

The apartment has seemed so gloomy and lonely these last few days. I've had a difficult time finding things to hold my attention for very long, and thus being gloomy and lonely myself.

It will be interesting when my soldier gets back home, so see how I've changed my routines and habits since he's been gone and don't realize it. I really feel for those who have to endure the full year deployments. I know we will potentially have to as well. But, even in the last 7 weeks I feel like we have a slight disconnect. Our worlds are becoming more separate. I imagine that is normal, as they are two very different worlds, and even having a phone call every day isn't going to make those worlds feel much closer. It just keeps them from falling apart. It keeps us connected. I think it really takes more of a conscious effort to stay connected when you are literally half the world away from the one you love. There is no part of this that is easy, for either side of the world!