Day Fifty-Nine & Sixty.

I wasn't up to blogging yesterday, so I didn't. No particular reason really. It just felt like a chore, and I don't want this to be a chore. So when something I typically enjoy becomes a chore, it's time to take a break.

I chatted with my soldier yesterday. He had quite an eventful day yesterday, so he did most of the talking. He worked at the FARP and it was really super busy. In the midst of all the busyness, something very valuable was dropped, and so this created more events to complicate the day. I don't want to share too many details, but it was due to someone's mistake basically and therefore some heads were rolling!
He was glad to be done with the day for sure, and somewhat glad he doesn't have to report back to the FARP for another couple weeks.

I haven't slept well for the past couple nights. It's been a mix of anxiousness from things going on "back home" and restlessness being alone at night. It's strange how I can be just fine for days or weeks, and then bam, I'm back to square one again! I've been trying to remedy my anxiety and force myself to sleep in bed, because more than likely, I won't sleep any better out on the couch.

I was pretty productive today. I woke up early, first due to the massive headache I had, and second because my mind was already mulling over what I could do, or what could be done to help with the home situation. It is tough being this far away from home and not being able to help. It is a first for me and leaves me with a nagging feeling of helplessness. But I can only do what I can do, and have to release myself from the weight of things I can do nothing about. This is still a work in progress.

Since I woke up so early, I was able to workout and shower and fix my hair pretty for my chat with my boyfriend! I'm sure he appreciates that, since half the time I've barely gotten out of bed.

It was a much more relaxing day for him today, so I was happy to hear that. He was back at one of the "shops" which is much less intense than the FARP. Tomorrow he is at the Walker Center for his 12 hour shift. I keep forgetting that he is on 12 hour shifts now.

I was just imagining what our drive home from the company will be like after I pick him up! Having him in the same car, the same state, even the same country will be SO great I can't even put into words!!!!

Hoping to sleep well tonight.. and wishing my soldier sweet dreams as well...