Day Forty-Nine.

Starting to feel like we are on the "home stretch" now!!

I have a countdown going on my fridge for when my soldier is scheduled to leave Iraq!! I am so glad to know that he'll be on his way home soon!

There are so many things to look forward to when he gets back! We are planning to make it "official" by going to the courthouse about a week after he gets back, so I am starting to think of the little things I need to do (like dress shop!) for that. Also the Ball for the company is in April, so I need to find a dress for that as well!! This is exciting, but also a somewhat daunting task for me! I am not the best shopper, but it will be fun for these kinds of events!

My boyfriend and I missed each other on Skype today. He was on early, and I got on later. Our calls have been progressively later and later, so I decided not to sit and wait for an hour before he got on today. Of course this is the one day he gets on early! Oh well, what can you do?  I actually thought he was oversleeping again or something. It drives me crazy that I can't call or text to wake him up!

I decided to start my reading for school once I figured we weren't going to get to talk. I usually shut down Skype and E-mail, but for some reason I didn't today. A couple hours later, I see my honey log-in to Skype!  He was working at the Walker Center (computer/media center) today and was able to get a web-cam so we could chat. That was such a nice surprise. We didn't get to chat long, but it was still good to chat regardless.

He was telling me about a practical joke he played on one of the other guys there. I guess they have to do something to keep it light and break up the monotony of it all! Nothing wrong with a little good clean fun.

I had a much better day today than I did yesterday, even though once again I slept horribly. I am going to bed here soon. I didn't take a nap today, although my reading nearly put me to sleep and I wanted nothing more than to close the book, and my eyes.

Tomorrow I am attending a birthday party for one of the spouse's sons. It should be a fun time, and will also give me a break from my own monotony. I may not get to talk to my soldier though because of having to leave so early, and I believe he has a meeting, so our schedules don't match up very well. I will miss chatting, but it's good to know ahead of time so I can prepare myself a bit.

I feel a renewed sense of strength today. I don't know how or why this happens. I seem to just have many hills and valleys with my emotions. I suppose after feeling so low the last few days, that a hill was bound to be on the horizon. It feels good. I like to be strong and confident, not only for myself, but for my soldier. I know it is hard for him to see me at my lows when he is so far away and cannot do anything about it.. I try not to let it show too much. I don't want to worry him or make him feel bad. All he needs to be worried about is staying safe and coming home!