Day Fifty-One.

I'm floating on cloud nine tonight. I've been thinking about the homecoming...which is still over a month away, but still. I am the type of person who likes to have things planned out, so I've been making a list of things to do in the next month, and things I want to have ready, or ideas I have for homecoming surprises, like what meal to have ready in the crock-pot so we can have dinner ready when he comes home!

I got to video chat today with my soldier. He did get to watch the Super Bowl, and he got his two beers today, after he woke up. So he basically had beer with his breakfast, since he's on night shift. He drank them on an empty stomach, and it's been over a month since he's had even a sip of alcohol, so I bet he was feeling pretty good. He did have a big grin on his face today. So cute!

We've been on a kick talking about the "zombie apocalypse," which is a big thing to talk about in the Army apparently. But anyway, we have been talking about various things that we would need, etc, and he had found some interesting info. So that was a big part of our conversation today. We also just chatted about our phone service (which has horrible reception here) and little things like that. 

I really need to get my schedule adjusted back to what a normal person's schedule resembles. I know he will be adjusting when he gets back too, but I don't want to be so out of whack that I am tired all the time. (like I am now anyway) If given the opportunity, I turn into a night owl and my sleep cycle gets flipped around. Although I actually enjoy the flipped schedule, it doesn't mesh well with the rest of the world most days.

I have had a few strange moments of realization of being alone recently. I will be carrying out my day as normal, and then I will get an overwhelming feeling of "alone-ness" come over me. It usually only lasts a few minutes, and I am then shaking it off and continuing my day. It's the feeling of being alone I had early on in the deployment, however then it was a constant and the feeling normal moments were more rare. It still takes a conscious effort to stay distracted and not focus on any of the bad or scary feelings, and only on the positive, happy feelings.  Some days that takes more effort than others.. thankfully today has been easier than most, I welcome the relief.