I am stirring in my own skin tonight. I am just ready for life to feel complete again. I'm tired of the 'half-empty' feeling I get, usually in the evenings when I'm winding down and thinking about the next day to come.
My honey and I had a really nice chat today. We laughed and talked about light-hearted topics. We actually did get to chat last night before I went to bed. That was nice too, getting to talk before going to sleep. We were both laying in bed "next to" each other, just like at home. I panned the camera around the bedroom so he could see that it was pretty much the same. He showed me how bright it was in his Chu (since it was daytime there) and why he has a hard time sleeping.
He took his camera to work yesterday and took some pictures of the landscape and also got a video of one of the helicopters flying in. I'll be anxious to see all his pictures and videos! He has a day off I think tomorrow night. He sounds about like me when it comes to "free time" right now. It's a little boring and less than fulfilling.
I wish I had more to write. Sometimes it's hard to express some days in words. It just feels like I have the same set of emotions that are always on repeat. Happy and hopeful, sad and lonely, wistful and starry-eyed, ambitious and driven, longing and love sick...Most of which I experience within a days time!! Not that I don't usually have a wide variety of emotions in normal situations, but I can at least do more about them at the time. It is a very helpless feeling some days, to know there is nothing I can do but count days. I can make the most of my days, and I do try to do that. But at the end of the day, it doesn't change the fact that the apartment is only occupied by me and the cat.
It is amazing how much one person can make such a huge difference in one's life, even in the smallest ways.
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