Day Nineteen.

Thursday January 6th, 2011

Man, today has been a long day! I got a call from my soldier via Skype this morning. He called a lot earlier than usual so I was lucky I caught the call. I actually missed his first call. I was about 30 seconds from working out and happened to walk through the room where the computer was as I was headed to the treadmill!

We had a nice chat today. He didn't have much going on there since he was off work and basically watched t.v. and movies and surfed the web. But I had two days worth of things to tell him since we just chatted on facebook for a short while yesterday.

It's nice to have the video chat. I brought one of my mom's cats back home with me (not sure if I've mentioned this or not) so he gets to see the cat run around while we chat. She does provide plenty of entertainment for me, and also some aggravation, but she is decent company at least, so I'm not talking to myself all the time!

After my workout, I made a much needed grocery trip!  Everything I did today was forced. I did not want to get out of bed (or, couch) I didn't want to workout, and I didn't want to go to the grocery! But, hence I did complete all of these tasks, as well as make some phone calls for school related things.

I find myself constantly battling myself, and my thoughts, trying to stay positive and not become disheartened. Every day seems like such a task at the start, then a victory at the end of the day when I've made it through!

It's strange in a way because it's not like we haven't spent long periods of time apart before. We were apart during Basic Training, and AIT....However, I think the distance, and the location have a lot to do with it..

Today I was thinking about what it will be like for my soldier when he gets back... if the apartment will feel weird to him, like when you go on vacation to some place really different then come back and it all looks and smells a little strange. Will the U.S. look different to him? I imagine it will after being gone so long. I wonder what else he will be feeling or thinking...I have to reel myself in a little when I start thinking about his homecoming.. I start to get really excited and happy, and just think of the wonderful anticipation we will be feeling in the days and moments leading up to his homecoming!  I just don't want to get too far ahead of myself since we still have a while to go! But every now and then, I like to let myself revel in that lovely place where he'll be back in my arms. It makes me smile.

I also ponder often what he is doing right now and who he is spending his days with, what the atmosphere is like, the sounds and smells, what experiences are molding and changing him in ways he may not even realize, and how his body and mind are reacting to such an upheaval to it's usual surroundings and accommodations.

For the most part he seems to be in fairly good spirits. We had a lot of good laughs today. It was fun chatting! I missed seeing his face after the one day of no video chat! We are spoiled! 

I will be so glad to "hang-out" with my soldier...my best friend...my boyfriend...my honey.....my love, again - - in person!!