Day Forty-Three.

So tired. It is 10pm and I was ready for bed at about 6pm!

No particular reason really, just tired.

My soldier is going to be working at the hangar tonight. He also has tomorrow night off. I didn't take any notes today of our conversation. I know we talked about our plans for the week that he gets home. We also talked about movies, good ones and bad ones.

I reminded him that he is over half way there! He'll be home in less days than he's already been over there. He wasn't really all that impressed with that fact. I just think that any amount of days feels like too many days, which I totally understand!!

I am trying to figure out what to do tomorrow. I have a really long to-do list, of mostly phone-calls, and also training for the job I don't want to work at from 10am - 1pm. It is my first day of training. I am wondering if I should waste their time and mine by starting this training. It's only a few hours, so it won't be too bad. I'm just reluctant and have had a bad vibe for this place since I interviewed. I don't know if its because I'll be working with and surrounded by people I don't know, in an environment I am not familiar with, and I am just overwhelmed with being thrown into those situations.. it's pretty much all I've experienced (no surprise, since it's a whole new state!) since I've moved away from home.

I just wonder how long it will take for me to feel comfortable here. It feels like it is taking forever and I don't like it.  I miss feeling comfortable and knowing all the back roads, and the best times to go to certain stores, and actually knowing where those stores are! I have lived within a 40 mile radius of the house I grew up in my entire life, and now I am hundreds of miles away from there with this never-ending "lost" feeling surrounding me.