Day Thirty.

Well it's officially been a month now!

I wonder if subconsciously I knew this as I woke up because I was in a funk as soon as I opened my eyes. I dreamed of my boyfriend and I sitting together, I don't remember what all was going on, but as I woke up I remembered that he had his arm around me. I didn't want to leave my dream!

I struggled this morning to get moving and get ready for the day. I was a bit emotional from the start and found myself getting teary several times. I tried to cheer up. I didn't want to be down in the dumps when I got on-line to video chat with my honey.

We didn't chat for as long as we usually do. The delay was bad on skype today and the video and audio quality wasn't very good for some reason. He was tired and I was out of things to talk about. He didn't have anything to report about work. It was just a regular old day. He told me yesterday that he received the care package a couple days ago that I sent. He shared the contents and has been playing the hand-held games. I'm really glad that he got it, and that he is enjoying it!!

I asked him if he was going to write me a birthday letter. He said it might have to be a birthday email. He said he doesn't have any envelopes, but I'm pretty sure they sell those in the PX. I knew I should have stuck some envelopes and stamps in his bag! I just get the impression he's not a fan of writing. It sounds like he has some things going on this week, like an inspection this Friday so he has to get things cleaned up and in tip-top shape the next couple days.

The rest of my day has been pretty uneventful. It will be good for me to go to class tomorrow and get out and about. I feel like some pieces of me are fading away. I'm trying to stay upbeat and be positive, but today is just one of those days.