First night back home alone was not so great. I only slept a couple hours. I kept hearing noises and imagining someone breaking in. I heard sirens and feared the apartment complex was on fire. The cat I brought home kept trying to sleep on my face and running around crazy. I eventually moved to the couch and locked the cat up so I could sleep for a couple hours!
Tonight I am just going to start out on the couch and hopefully sleep better. I bought some Christmas door hangars with bells on them, just for a little peace of mind. I sure hope that I can get better adjusted to being alone. I can't imagine going through the next two months like this. I felt like a zombie today!
I did get the care package sent off today - FINALLY! I actually stopped at the Post Office on my way home yesterday but they didn't open until 8:30am. I let my boyfriend know this, he said he hopes it will make it in time. I sure hope it does. He said they had to turn in some sort of mail card the other day.
The shipping cost a lot less than I thought it would be. I had to fill out a custom's form. They said it will take 5-10 business days....so hopefully it will take closer to five because otherwise there is a good chance it won't make it. I think it is pretty ridiculous that they are going to be there for another 2+ months and will not have any access to mail. In addition to that, being moved out of their Chu's and into a "warehouse" to live.
Okay, I will try to be more positive. I know it could be a lot worse, so I need to count my blessings....Sometimes though it is difficult.
My soldier did not have too much to chat about today in regards to his work. His shift was pretty slow and not much going on. This shift is a difficult change I think. He gets off work just after the sun comes up, and goes to bed, then goes to work just as the sun is setting. Not seeing much daylight can get old quick and really affect your mood.. so I hope he will try and get some "sun" on his day off tomorrow after work.
Talking to my boyfriend totally turned my mood around and helped me get over the hump I was struggling with. He cheered me up and made me feel so much better! It is always the highlight of my day chatting with my honey! I really hope we can still chat when he moves out of his Chu. It just might be a little less convenient for him.
Tomorrow I need to get in gear and be productive. My mind is wavering quite a bit, struggling to stay focused and positive, battling with loneliness and what-if's. So often I feel like this is all a dream. It is so surreal. I pray that tonight will go well and sleep will come easy.
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