It has been over a year since the days I typed away the days of deployment. I do not miss those days one, single, ounce!
Although it has been quite a while, and I originally started this blog to help get me through deployment, I am morphing the format a bit to accommodate our ever-changing lives in the Army.
My hubby and I have now been married for a year (and two days!), and have officially started the process of fertility treatments! So, here is hoping for smooth sailing.
There's a ticking clock in my head. It is counting down to the next deployment. I keep thinking... okay, so if we get pregnant now... the baby will be this many months old around the time he has to deploy again.. I think about the looming deadline, that if we aren't pregnant by a certain date, then he wouldn't be here for the birth, and I really don't want that to happen. He gives me strength and is such a wonderful motivator, that I can't imagine doing it without him here. Not only that, but it is such a special day; I would hate for him to miss it.
There is a part of me that wonders if we should just wait until he gets back from deployment. Also, we haven't had a lot of "just us" time during our marriage..so the ever present question is 'now or later?' I am already at a higher-risk for pregnancy due to a blood clotting disorder and previous miscarriages. So it really has been a battle for us to figure out what to do. I figure that we will try this time and then decide what to do from there!
At this point I am just trying to take it one day at a time.
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