This is it! This is the day! The day I have been waiting for ... for Eighty One days! I just didn't know what exact day it would be way back then.
It has been a journey, let me tell ya! Today I was putting away the dishes and thinking of the last time my soldier was here. It was before Christmas.. and I think of all the days that have passed without him, and the things I have done since he's been gone, it is a different kind of feeling that I don't quite know how to put into words. In some ways it seems like just yesterday... in others it seems like such a long time ago.
While I was getting ready this afternoon, I was thinking of how it will be when he gets home. It too is a strange feeling. I have gotten so used to doing everything on my own.. talking to myself or the cat while I'm puttering around the house, being on my own schedule and eating odd things at all hours of the day and night.. sleeping when I can or when exhaustion has finally taken over.. it will be so different in about 4 hours from now, when we are BOTH back in the apartment! It's not a bad thing, it is actually a very good thing, but also will take some adjusting for both of us.
For him, he's been so used to having no privacy, staying with two roommates or in a giant tent full of fifty other soldiers. For me it's been almost solitary confinement in my own apartment. I've been alone in the eight small rooms that I call home, with a little four-legged critter, trying to make sense of each day. He has had each day planned out for him, reporting this time or that time, staring at the same four walls and desert landscape. We are merging from two very different places! It funny to me that this really occurred to me just today. I mean, I've thought about it briefly at times, but never like, whoa!
I am anxious, even though for us it has been barely three months, to get to know each other all over again. Again, I am thankful that we only had to endure this short deployment this time.. and maybe we'll get lucky and there won't be another one...but I won't hold my breath.. So at least we had a good practice run, and will both know a little more what to expect the next time around. Until then, I plan to hold tight and enjoy every moment we have together!
I can barely stand to sit here right now. I have been sick the past few days, and I know I should be resting anyway, but I want nothing to do with anything related to sitting still. If there was something left to clean around here.. I would probably be cleaning it. I will be leaving in a few minutes, to go and wait some more! But we want to get there early for good parking, and seating! If I wasn't already sick, I would probably feel sick! Haha.
I'll try and continue blogging, but I'm sure it won't be as frequent. I am thankful I have been able to share my raw feelings on here without fear of judgment. It has been a huge help to bring me to face my feelings head on and address them and move on, and allow myself to really grow throughout this journey! Cheers to our Soldiers! May they ALL come home safe!! <3
Wednesday, March 9, 2011
Tuesday, March 8, 2011
Day Seventy-Seven, Eight, Nine and Eighty!!
Oh wow! I have really been a slacker!
So Saturday through Tuesday is what I haven't written about. Let me think... Saturday I have no idea what I did. Sunday I had dinner with two Army wives that I just met. My professor at school introduced me to one of them. Her husband is in the same brigade as my boyfriend. She is my age, and the other lady is a little older, but she is the leader of the other unit's FRG. So they were both very informative and really fun to be around!
The past two days I have been sick! My boyfriend was actually supposed to be home tomorrow early in the morning, but due to a sandstorm their flight was delayed. So now the homecoming is tomorrow evening! I am still sick, but my to-do list is pretty much complete! All I have to do now is wait....
It's a little bit strange to think that in 24 hours, my honey will be here in this room with me! I can hardly believe it! I am sure it won't be truly real until he's here in my arms, in the flesh... even then it may seem like a dream!
I haven't talked to him since Sunday, and even then it was only Facebook chat. I'm not sure why I haven't gotten an email or anything. My guess is that it costs money to purchase internet and he probably assumes I will get the information from the other girls. I am glad that I have the other ladies to communicate the info to me. I haven't actually heard from the "official" channels yet. Not certain that I will. But as long as I am getting the information some how, I am okay with that. I just miss talking to my honey! We'll have plenty of time for that here soon! Just one more day to get through! I can't wait!!!!
So Saturday through Tuesday is what I haven't written about. Let me think... Saturday I have no idea what I did. Sunday I had dinner with two Army wives that I just met. My professor at school introduced me to one of them. Her husband is in the same brigade as my boyfriend. She is my age, and the other lady is a little older, but she is the leader of the other unit's FRG. So they were both very informative and really fun to be around!
The past two days I have been sick! My boyfriend was actually supposed to be home tomorrow early in the morning, but due to a sandstorm their flight was delayed. So now the homecoming is tomorrow evening! I am still sick, but my to-do list is pretty much complete! All I have to do now is wait....
It's a little bit strange to think that in 24 hours, my honey will be here in this room with me! I can hardly believe it! I am sure it won't be truly real until he's here in my arms, in the flesh... even then it may seem like a dream!
I haven't talked to him since Sunday, and even then it was only Facebook chat. I'm not sure why I haven't gotten an email or anything. My guess is that it costs money to purchase internet and he probably assumes I will get the information from the other girls. I am glad that I have the other ladies to communicate the info to me. I haven't actually heard from the "official" channels yet. Not certain that I will. But as long as I am getting the information some how, I am okay with that. I just miss talking to my honey! We'll have plenty of time for that here soon! Just one more day to get through! I can't wait!!!!
Saturday, March 5, 2011
Day Seventy-Five & Seventy Six.
Thursday March 3, 2011 & Friday March 4, 2011
It has been a busy couple days for me, which has really been a blessing! I am so glad to keep busy and make the time go faster, even though I am exhausted. It's a good kind of exhausted. I've been running errands and hanging out with some of the ladies here, as well as going to class, etc.
It is actually about 2am on Saturday that I am writing this. I just got home from a little get-together. It is probably the last one we will have before all the guys are back home. So it was nice to have some girl time and talk about what we still need to do to get things ready, what we want to wear for the homecoming, and share all our hopes and fears of the adjustment period.
Luck for us it probably won't be too much of an adjustment. It still will take a little getting used to, but definitely not as difficult as the people who had one-year or more deployments. But no matter how long they were gone, they were still greatly missed and all of our lives were turned upside down during that time. We all had to learn how to do things without our "better half" and figure out a new way of living, with the ache of our certain someone missing from our lives.
I actually feel really fortunate that we were able to communicate as much as we have. There were only a handful of days that we did not get to communicate. It will be so nice to be able to see his face in person though!
I am getting a little ahead of myself because we still have a short time to wait, but it's close enough that I am allowing myself to really dwell in the homecoming and how wonderful it will be to have him present in my daily life... in person!
It has been a busy couple days for me, which has really been a blessing! I am so glad to keep busy and make the time go faster, even though I am exhausted. It's a good kind of exhausted. I've been running errands and hanging out with some of the ladies here, as well as going to class, etc.
It is actually about 2am on Saturday that I am writing this. I just got home from a little get-together. It is probably the last one we will have before all the guys are back home. So it was nice to have some girl time and talk about what we still need to do to get things ready, what we want to wear for the homecoming, and share all our hopes and fears of the adjustment period.
Luck for us it probably won't be too much of an adjustment. It still will take a little getting used to, but definitely not as difficult as the people who had one-year or more deployments. But no matter how long they were gone, they were still greatly missed and all of our lives were turned upside down during that time. We all had to learn how to do things without our "better half" and figure out a new way of living, with the ache of our certain someone missing from our lives.
I actually feel really fortunate that we were able to communicate as much as we have. There were only a handful of days that we did not get to communicate. It will be so nice to be able to see his face in person though!
I am getting a little ahead of myself because we still have a short time to wait, but it's close enough that I am allowing myself to really dwell in the homecoming and how wonderful it will be to have him present in my daily life... in person!
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
Day Seventy-Three & Seventy Four.
Tuesday March 1, 2011 & Wednesday March 2, 2011
I am really exhausted this evening! I've had a busy couple days and not much sleep. I really hope that I will be able to sleep tonight! I had class yesterday, and got my car fixed, then went to the mall and wal-mart.. then today I went to the PX with one of the army wives and then to the commissary.
I did get to talk to my soldier today. He is feeling much better. He has been really bored the last couple days. They are basically only reporting for formations right now, so that is making time go really slow and making him miss home even more!
I've been trying to find a cute outfit to wear for the homecoming.. I just need to find some shoes now and I'll be set. The trouble is, there isn't much along the lines of shoe stores around here! I've checked a few places and haven't had any luck.. There is one other small women's store in town I can check, so I'll do that here soon. I still have some time! I am getting my hair done tomorrow, so I am excited for that! I haven't had it done in about 6 months now!!
I would like to write more, but I am really tired and can barely focus on what I'm typing!
I am really exhausted this evening! I've had a busy couple days and not much sleep. I really hope that I will be able to sleep tonight! I had class yesterday, and got my car fixed, then went to the mall and wal-mart.. then today I went to the PX with one of the army wives and then to the commissary.
I did get to talk to my soldier today. He is feeling much better. He has been really bored the last couple days. They are basically only reporting for formations right now, so that is making time go really slow and making him miss home even more!
I've been trying to find a cute outfit to wear for the homecoming.. I just need to find some shoes now and I'll be set. The trouble is, there isn't much along the lines of shoe stores around here! I've checked a few places and haven't had any luck.. There is one other small women's store in town I can check, so I'll do that here soon. I still have some time! I am getting my hair done tomorrow, so I am excited for that! I haven't had it done in about 6 months now!!
I would like to write more, but I am really tired and can barely focus on what I'm typing!
Tuesday, March 1, 2011
Day Seventy One & Seventy Two.
Sunday February 27, 2011 & Monday February 28, 2011
The last couple days have been okay. Yesterday I didn't get to talk to my boyfriend, so I of course was worried. I knew he was sick with pneumonia, so I couldn't help but think he was shipped off to a hospital or something..but I figured in all actuality he was sleeping and just not feeling well, which was exactly the case.
I did get to talk to him today. He was feeling better, but not 100%. He is just taking his medicine and trying to stay hydrated.. the usual when being sick. The good news, I guess, is that it was more in his sinuses than in his chest. I know that feels probably just as bad, if not worse, but it is at least not settling in his lungs. He sounded awful! But there was a little more "pep" to his step than the other day when I talked to him.
I know that he is probably fueled also by his homecoming being just a short time away. I am so excited to see my honey in person again! I will sometimes sit and picture him being here in the house with me.. just seems so surreal!
Tomorrow is a busy day for me. I have to get my car to the shop early and then I have school and then need to run to the store for a return, and stop by the mall to hopefully find a dress for my weddin'! I haven't had much luck so far, but I am determined!!! I may need to broaden my search a little, and fore-go the usual white dress. We shall see.
So off to bed I go. I'm really not that tired, but I have to start altering my sleep schedule back to a "normal" schedule.. no more of this staying up all night stuff!! (I hope..it's really not by choice) I just have to make a conscious effort to stay awake during the day even when I'm exhausted from not sleeping well at night. Being busy like tomorrow's schedule will really help with that!
The last couple days have been okay. Yesterday I didn't get to talk to my boyfriend, so I of course was worried. I knew he was sick with pneumonia, so I couldn't help but think he was shipped off to a hospital or something..but I figured in all actuality he was sleeping and just not feeling well, which was exactly the case.
I did get to talk to him today. He was feeling better, but not 100%. He is just taking his medicine and trying to stay hydrated.. the usual when being sick. The good news, I guess, is that it was more in his sinuses than in his chest. I know that feels probably just as bad, if not worse, but it is at least not settling in his lungs. He sounded awful! But there was a little more "pep" to his step than the other day when I talked to him.
I know that he is probably fueled also by his homecoming being just a short time away. I am so excited to see my honey in person again! I will sometimes sit and picture him being here in the house with me.. just seems so surreal!
Tomorrow is a busy day for me. I have to get my car to the shop early and then I have school and then need to run to the store for a return, and stop by the mall to hopefully find a dress for my weddin'! I haven't had much luck so far, but I am determined!!! I may need to broaden my search a little, and fore-go the usual white dress. We shall see.
So off to bed I go. I'm really not that tired, but I have to start altering my sleep schedule back to a "normal" schedule.. no more of this staying up all night stuff!! (I hope..it's really not by choice) I just have to make a conscious effort to stay awake during the day even when I'm exhausted from not sleeping well at night. Being busy like tomorrow's schedule will really help with that!
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